not givin in...

i hate that feelin wen yu and yur partner are arguin and both of yu wanna be hard headed,so neither of yu say shit & neither of yu apologize.
like its some game,like yu jus have to win.
yu have to be the one who stays strongest.
the one who stands their ground,til the other gives in...
like wut the hell?!..
i mean...at the end of the day (hopefully) yu know itll be time jus waisted..
bein aggrivated..for wut reason?
there's usually never a "real" reason for the arguements or the silent treaments..
becuase either ill say "im say sorry ill never do it again"..or yu'll say "im sorry i jus make it a bigger deal than it is"..
but the whole time while yur not talkin yu feel this gut wrenchin feelin..knowin its jus not right.
yu love this person,so why wont yu jus make it right?

seems like even as much as yu love sumone,there has to be sum bad moments..
almost like havin that feelin of hurt means sumthin because it means the relationship is actually worth fightn over??..

idk or maybe i jus like pain in general..seems like i look for it everywhere..
like i jus cant help but be a jerk or aggrivating or annoying..i seem to always look for peoples buttons to push..
maybe i just test people?
maybe i jus wanna see where their limits are..
how far I CAN "push them"..
i do always remeber everythin..maybe i jus use those days as refrences..
so that i know wut not to do or say on days that rly matter..
on a day i really need to say sumthin,but im really not trynna fight or argue..
maybe its an easier way than another to figure out wut bothers sumone and wuts ok to them..

idk,i jus ramble alot,im jus hella random..
but i never know why i always seem to be "the bully",and yet im surrounded by people who love me..
*shrugs* idk...
im ouut